Boredom is the Leading Killer of Nights in the Teenage Community, Slightly Above Overprotective Parents

Me: Whats up?
Them: Nothing much. You?
Me: Nothing just listening to some music and watching television
Me: I feel like I was born to multitask
Them: Oh ok.
Me: But, yeah, how was your day?
Them: Cool
Me: Did you do anything fun today
Them: No
Me: Oh.. Alright

Ever had a conversation like this? It's the worst. I manage to have one of these a night. I wanted to make sure I touched on this topic at least once, as it seems to keep coming up. One of the biggest turn offs in most people's mind is the inability to hold conversation. I don't want to know your whole life story and I won't tell you mine. There is a thing called detail though. One thing I miss is having good conversations. I know my life is pretty boring nowadays, but still. I can hold a conversation. So if you are reading this, and our conversations look pretty similar, understand how frustrating it is.

But besides that, I am just bored for now. I finally received the Wii and have been playing recently. I just need a gamecube controller. Ordered it yesterday, so I hope I can get it soon. I need to start owning again.

Listening to music nowadays though, I feel like I need to write songs. It makes me want to do it, but my attention span will not allow me to. I start things and never finish them, it seems to be a problem with a lot of things that I have started. Including this blog.

I am going to leave it there. "I found like and lost the hate, while I sit back and follow my fate"

Peace,
Dion Jose

Weekend Update

Hello again,
To the non-followers and the people who don't read the blog, I love you all. I am realizing why I don't want to be home anymore. Home has been associated with boredom, so whenever I am outside, I tend to enjoy myself. This boredom has to vanish somehow. When the Wii comes back, I shall be getting back on my Super Smash Brothers grind. Hopefully I can find some Gamecube controllers by then. I just want to borrow some though, I really don't need to buy if I am not bringing the Wii with me to school. My mom has already claimed it. For some reason, she swears she will learn how to play Guitar Hero. It will be something to see. Besides that, I am just typing this up to talk on my weekend so far.

I had my third driving lesson yesterday. It was alright, I just think Mr. Bowen is getting too comfortable as my teacher. I understand it is his job to try to sign me up for a package, but calm down. I used to be a salesman also (even though I hated it). These stupid broken U-turns are frustrating me. I can do it, I just want to be able to do it fast in the middle of the street. I get nervous when I see oncoming traffic coming while I am trying to turn. On top of that, he came fifteen minutes late. It was just a bad lesson for that day.

So I left that, to go to the movies with Marcus. Best decision of the day, since that movie was awesome. I will be looking out for that name now, Isabelle Fuhrman. She deserved an award for that movie. The Orphan, sorry about that. It was a horror mixed with a comedy, I do not know how funny it was actually supposed to be though. Then I spent pretty much two hours getting home taking the number trains. That kind of annoys me that it takes so long on the weekends to get home. Then again, I hate being home early.

Now, I must get into the gear of things, for the school year. Time to update the wardrobe and get ready for one of the most important years of my life. Sophomore year, when I make my mark, when I declare my major, when I decide where to go for study abroad, etc; I want to get everything right. Find the right group of friends will be important. I already have the people I hung out with last year, but I still want to update and tighten my group. Also, I want to be able to focus more on my studies. I had a lot of dead time during the year and I sat around just on facebook or playing pool. It was fun, but I do need to fix my GPA.

Besides that I have nothing else on my mind, unless I say online shopping is wonderful. I have to really get my mom something nice though, she is taking out of her pension to keep me in Kalamazoo.

Peace,
Dion Jose

The Deadliest Weapon Against Ignorance Is Education

Usually I do not like to write a blog post for everyday, since each day of my life is not interesting enough to write about. This summer, days tend to blend together, to a point where I have a daily routine and cannot remember what the date is. Fortunately, I have been thinking about finding a new hobby. Now what shall it be...... READING!!!

Now I know what you are thinking, reading isn't new, duh! If you are thinking that, I should inform you that I hated reading as a child. It always bored me. I wish I was one of those children who could just sit down and transform into one of the characters and live in the story. I was more into video games and television. Now my addiction is social networking. It is always nice to meet someone new and to make a first impression. Back to the issue though. In college, I will have to continue to read uninteresting and lengthy novels and studies. Even in the professional world, being able to truck though novels is a skill that I will need in order to succeed. My number one priority at the moment is to get a library card again so I can start taking stuff out. While I took advantage of the privilege before, I hope to educate myself even more.

Another problem in the thought process is a career path. I am everywhere and interested in everything... Well not everything, but you should get the point. My top three fields so far are : Cultural/Social Psychology, Behavioral/Cultural Economics, and Law (It's kind of sketchy, but I think I could pass the bar if I wanted to). Then it gets fuzzy, since I want to get into television and film. (The Next Al Roker) On top of that, I want to somehow incorporate writing poetry and plays into a career. Then I wanted to become a professional billiards player... I am all screwed up. I think I need to sit down and look at all of these careers and see if I would really want to do them.

The last thing on my agenda to speak on[type on] is the thought of getting a tattoo. I want one, but I can live without one. That seems to be the theme of my life. There are a lot of things that I want, but will rather not have to spend on necessities. I think I will get one for my 19th birthday. The ideas are: My fathers tattoo (A raging bull with a broken lock on its horn to symbolize Bullock which is my last name for those who don't know), and a Matador (as you can see I am infatuated with the symbolism of a matador since it is my blog URL. It symbolizes the courage and wisdom to pull up with all of the bull shit[pun intended] in life). I am not too sure on it, but it seems like this is the one I want to get.

I will leave you with this picture and a peace out,
Dion Jose

Leave Those Heartbreak Kids and Get A Cardiologist

Hello, Hola, Konichiwa...?

I guess I will have to start my blog off for the summer with my dilemma, Girls, Money, and Education. It seems like that will be with me for the rest of my life. There is always a new problem in those three categories. Somehow they all correspond as well, so the fun never stops. I have been having a problem lately, where I find more than one girl that I like. This may be screwing up my chances, if I cared I wouldn't have a blog anyway. There are so many aspects of life that I enjoy, and it is reflective in my activities and my choice of friends/female companions. At the moment, there are two girls that have been on my mind. One is the first real crush. She is amazing. I feel like I will always like her for some reason. She seems to know how to keep me in check, and we share the same interests.

The other one is a new one, a young lady that I met in high school (well we didn't really talk, but I noticed her). She is one of the most interesting persons I have ever met. She is exactly what I am looking for in a woman, (an interest in education, an appreciation for being away from home, has a career goal in mind, has passion about things, a sense of humor, a sense of independence while enjoying to be taken care of, on top of a pretty face). Where has she been all of my life? I guess right under my nose. She is heartbroken, which is understandable, but if she ever reads this, I want her to know I will be the cardiologist. Pretty ironic, since she wants to be a cardiologist. I feel like I need to get back into the books to even hold an intelligent conversation with her, which I love the feeling so much.

What should I do? I don't even know, I guess wait. I saw that movie "500 Days of Summer". There was one part that really hit me, where the main character Tom goes on this rant about how Hallmark Cards are the destruction of America, and how they do the job that people can't do. After buying her a card for her birthday, I just felt like I should have torn it up and spilled my feelings right there. I can't though, I am too smooth for that... Well at least I thought I was.

Besides the girlies, I am worried about this money/education issue. I want to go back to Kalamazoo, but the school is acting really stingy with their financial aid. The school received two million dollars from an anonymous donor, on the stipulations that it was given to the minority students in the school to help with the student life. Now, with that being said, I was not blessed with any of that two million dollars. They actually cut my aid by five thousand dollars. What kind of school is that? I know God will make a way for me to get back, but still. There has to be something done, especially with the rude staff that the students pay for with tuition and other fees. On top of that, there is always some other random fee I have to pay. Who makes their students pay a retention fee? I must be under a rock or something. So if Kalamazoo continues to give me non-consistent financial aid, God willing, I will have to transfer to another school. The Psychology department is not even that strong, I could find a better use of $40,000 if the school does not want to support me. On the bright side, I am going to continue to take over the school as much as I can. Peer Leader, Heartbeat, A capella, Gospel Choir, BSO... what is next? I need to add something else with that list. It still seems too short.

As time goes on, I realize I am evolving and maturing. I love the feeling. I feel as I am getting more responsible by the day. I just need to soak in all of this knowledge and make good decisions. I refuse to end up like the others. (No money, no education, no steady job, Just doing nothing with life.) I want to be able to buy my mother a house, even though we have been through ups and downs, she always has had my back. I always wondered how a female changes from woman to mother in terms of mindset.

Anyway, I cannot stop listening to this song "Us" by Regina Spektor. It is one of my favorite songs now. Her voice is just amazing, along with the piano. I might have found a new artist to listen to.

I will leave on this note,
Dion Jose