Can't Chill, But My Neck Will

So it's September, and my summer is winding down, which is emphasized by the drastic (and welcomed) change in the weather. Finally, I get my favorite season of the year; The time for new beginnings, new circles, new clothing, new classes, and my new found favorite (FREEDOM). Don't get me wrong, I thank God for my parents, but living without parental restrictions is a wonderful feeling. I apologize to those who have to stay home for school, and laugh at those who choose to stay because they "love New York". I like New York just as anyone else, but when I get the opportunity, I get out.

As I count the days until I leave Brooklyn, I sit back and reminisce on what may have been the longest summer of my life. Its length was comparable to three months of watching reality television. For the first couple of weeks, it's good. Everyone is enjoying themselves. Then, the truth sets in and you feel like the star of your own show. MTV presents True Life: I'm Bored As F@%$. I didn't work, which is my fault. I should have been on top of my priorities and found a job before I came home. While being unemployed, I managed to focus on another point in my life, self-improvement in terms of friendships and relationships. I feel I have matured to the point where playing those little games are uninteresting. I don't have time to guess if you want to hang out, where you are, if you are thinking about me, why you don't pick up my phone calls. I figured out there are a lot of people in life that are there just to be useless. I wouldn't want to say that friends are disposable, because a good set is hard to find. However, acquaintances are like hair, get rid of one and many others will come to replace.

While that phase has been done, I have rediscovered askmen.com. It is the dictionary to my life. It teaches me about fashion, women, finance, travel, electronics, movies.... I can keep going. The main point that the website drove home is CONFIDENCE and SELF-PRESERVATION. In order to be taken seriously, dress and act the part. Through reflection and self-analysis, I realized that I am pretty indecisive about a lot of things. I don't like to be held accountable for things going wrong. I want to work on it. This indecisiveness has been troubling me for the past three months, with the most important life decisions are coming up this year. I want this to be the best year I have had. Nineteen, it is coming soon. Time to grow up. Get myself together. Still thinking about that tattoo. The next time I update should be when I get to school. 7 days, I countdown constantly. 7 days until freedom, 7 days until I bridge the knowledge gap, 7 days until I experience co-ed living, 7 days until wake up wanting to throw my cellphone on the floor for waking me up at 8 am for training at 9 am.

With that, I bid you ado
Dion Jose