Leave Those Heartbreak Kids and Get A Cardiologist

Hello, Hola, Konichiwa...?

I guess I will have to start my blog off for the summer with my dilemma, Girls, Money, and Education. It seems like that will be with me for the rest of my life. There is always a new problem in those three categories. Somehow they all correspond as well, so the fun never stops. I have been having a problem lately, where I find more than one girl that I like. This may be screwing up my chances, if I cared I wouldn't have a blog anyway. There are so many aspects of life that I enjoy, and it is reflective in my activities and my choice of friends/female companions. At the moment, there are two girls that have been on my mind. One is the first real crush. She is amazing. I feel like I will always like her for some reason. She seems to know how to keep me in check, and we share the same interests.

The other one is a new one, a young lady that I met in high school (well we didn't really talk, but I noticed her). She is one of the most interesting persons I have ever met. She is exactly what I am looking for in a woman, (an interest in education, an appreciation for being away from home, has a career goal in mind, has passion about things, a sense of humor, a sense of independence while enjoying to be taken care of, on top of a pretty face). Where has she been all of my life? I guess right under my nose. She is heartbroken, which is understandable, but if she ever reads this, I want her to know I will be the cardiologist. Pretty ironic, since she wants to be a cardiologist. I feel like I need to get back into the books to even hold an intelligent conversation with her, which I love the feeling so much.

What should I do? I don't even know, I guess wait. I saw that movie "500 Days of Summer". There was one part that really hit me, where the main character Tom goes on this rant about how Hallmark Cards are the destruction of America, and how they do the job that people can't do. After buying her a card for her birthday, I just felt like I should have torn it up and spilled my feelings right there. I can't though, I am too smooth for that... Well at least I thought I was.

Besides the girlies, I am worried about this money/education issue. I want to go back to Kalamazoo, but the school is acting really stingy with their financial aid. The school received two million dollars from an anonymous donor, on the stipulations that it was given to the minority students in the school to help with the student life. Now, with that being said, I was not blessed with any of that two million dollars. They actually cut my aid by five thousand dollars. What kind of school is that? I know God will make a way for me to get back, but still. There has to be something done, especially with the rude staff that the students pay for with tuition and other fees. On top of that, there is always some other random fee I have to pay. Who makes their students pay a retention fee? I must be under a rock or something. So if Kalamazoo continues to give me non-consistent financial aid, God willing, I will have to transfer to another school. The Psychology department is not even that strong, I could find a better use of $40,000 if the school does not want to support me. On the bright side, I am going to continue to take over the school as much as I can. Peer Leader, Heartbeat, A capella, Gospel Choir, BSO... what is next? I need to add something else with that list. It still seems too short.

As time goes on, I realize I am evolving and maturing. I love the feeling. I feel as I am getting more responsible by the day. I just need to soak in all of this knowledge and make good decisions. I refuse to end up like the others. (No money, no education, no steady job, Just doing nothing with life.) I want to be able to buy my mother a house, even though we have been through ups and downs, she always has had my back. I always wondered how a female changes from woman to mother in terms of mindset.

Anyway, I cannot stop listening to this song "Us" by Regina Spektor. It is one of my favorite songs now. Her voice is just amazing, along with the piano. I might have found a new artist to listen to.

I will leave on this note,
Dion Jose